We Need To Talk

                                                                (Q-twin)

Actually She said, "I need to discuss a few things with you some time this weekend."...This means that at some point...Q will sit down, ( usually fully clothed) and i will be seated, or kneeling naked at Her feet...Because when Q says that She needs to discuss something...it's different than "we" need to discuss something...and me being naked at Her feet only serves to underscore the fact that i'm to do the listening while She does the talking!....

And these type of discussions generally are about new rules...or some things She wants to change...something or someone new She wants to try....or maybe pushing my limits a little further....some  higher expectations She may have developed for me to live up to....I can make a pretty good guess on at least one topic that She will address...there have been several new things of a sexual nature that we have tentatively talked about over the past several weeks, that i know Q has been considering...and i imagine She has come to a few conclusions on these matters....

One thing to note...when these type of discussions are over...it is a tradition we have...that to show my voluntary compliance with any and all new changes or developments...i choose a form of discipline, an appropriate implement, a suggestion on what position i should assume....then offer myself, surrender to suffer at my Wife's hands in a symbolic gesture of my willingness to bend and adapt to any new parameters She has set in place...and i never try to choose a way to get off lightly...(it wouldn't matter even if i did, Q always takes the matter of discipline very seriously...even in "play time")...no, i always choose an implement that i know will be very painful for me, and satisfying to Her...and then offer it to Her on my knees in a very humble, and worshipful manner...while at the same time...formally offering my body to Her...to use,  to do with as She pleases at that very moment....to prove my devotion to Her...and my respect for Her decisions and Her judgment....and i must say...Q takes full advantage of my surrendered flesh...as a way to cement my submission...and to satisfy Her dominant lusts as well!

If nothing changes between now and Sunday...i will have been locked in the CB-6000s for two weeks...i already go into this weekend feeling horny and controlled...and i am quite anxious about what Q may have in store for us...I love Her...and i love being Her submissive...Her slave...Her plaything....i quite often beg to serve all Her needs....but i must say....waiting for what comes next...not knowing what will be expected of me from now on...or what devious ideas Q has in mind for our play time....or perhaps it will all be about Her and Her wants....you see....until She makes it my business...it's none of my business...and the not knowing is something this sub still struggles with....And i'm quite sure She gets a thrill from that little bit of unease on my part as well!

 

i Willingly Must Submit Without Question

                                                            (Q-twin)

Well, i managed to get the garage cleaned and straightened today the way Q had insisted it be done...i took off work early this afternoon and got busy on it....When dinner time rolled around...Q graciously ordered pizzas for us...saving me from having to wash up and prepare a meal for the three of us...i had intentions of just grabbing a slice or two to take outside and finish up my chore...but Q insisted (and rightly so...) that we sit down and eat as family the way we always do...."Just because you neglected your responsibility does not mean our son and I have to go without your presence at the dinner table!"....there was only about another hours worth of work after we finished eating...then the work was finally done...and i proudly headed upstairs to shower...

i had taken off my clothes and was about to turn the water on when Q came into the bathroom and shut the door...in one hand She had one of our large butt-plugs...and in the other She had the anal lube....waving the plug in the air Q ordered me over to my sink, and told me to bend over...Now Q has been dominating me for almost two and a half years...and i have to tell you...it's still very humiliating to me...to be ordered to bend over in front of my fully clothed Wife...so that She can stick something up my ass!...It's no where near the same as a sexually charged session in the bedroom with the strapon...or an erotic evening with any of Her other assorted dildos...this is a complete surrender...total compliance and acceptance that She can do anything to me She wants...anytime She wants...and i willingly must submit to Her without question....what more proof of what my role and position really is in this marriage do i need...

"Spread those cheeks for Me...spread them wide!" She ordered....i reached behind me and did as She instructed...my face burned in shame as i spread my ass just as wide as i could...to afford Her an unobstructed access to my asshole, and to hopefully ease the passage of that wide instrument....i could see Q in the batroom mirror as She squeezed out the lube directly onto the plug...and then without even sliding any of Her fingers inside me first...Q began to work that plastic plug into my anus...pushing in, and pulling out again...using a twisting motion...my Wife pumped and worked the plug deeper, and deeper inside me...i felt my sphincter stretching...aching with the invasion of the widest part of the plug...then snapping closed around it as the bulk of it suddenly broke through past the outer ring...securing it's width inside me as my anus gripped and contracted in spasms around the thinner area behind plug itself....





After a moment of adjustment, Q allowed me to straighten up, then began to softly stroke my penis...She whispered lustily in my ear, "Don't play with your pee-pee while you wash it....I'm in the mood to suck a dick tonight! And this one will have to do!"...despite the plug up my ass...my penis thickened to half mast at the thought of one of Q's blowjobs!...i hurried through my shower in anticipation....the butt-plug was really beginning to get uncomfortable...Q made me keep it in a good half hour after i got out of the shower...by then that feeling of really needing to "go" was killing me...usually Q has me to remove the plugs myself, having asserted Her power by inserting them...but tonight She insisted on removing it Herself...once again...that delicious humiliation had me just wanting to shrink away and hide...as i bent over for my Wife to ease that fat plug out of my aching ass...i was so concerned about that feeling of needing to "go" as well...but Q just took some toilet paper and cleaned the lube from around my ass, while i once again spread my cheeks for Her...then to be thorough...She took a warm rag and gently finished cleaning my bottom to Her satisfaction....it felt wonderful, and humbling at the same time...to have my Wife wiping me as if i were a little child...bent over....naked in the bathroom...exposed for Her inspection....





While standing there naked in front of Her while She was still dressed....and quite literally embarrassed by the whole experience...Q explained to me why She got so forceful yesterday....spanking me twice...and insisted that the garage be cleaned today....i had hurt Her feelings because She had made big plans for us this weekend...even so far as to get granma to keep our son overnight..."Don't you remember what I wrote to you on your post in your blog?....(see Q's comment to my posting at - iHonorHer : She's Getting Ready....Are You? ) and then it did dawn on me....i did forget...how ungrateful of me...Q had left me a message...a comment on a blog posting for the whole world to read...and She had made the effort to make sure we had a full day together to "play" and love each other as long and as loud as we wanted....i felt so bad and ashamed...She said that She thought the butt-plug might jar my memory...but i guess the thrill of an impending blowjob took my focus elsewhere....Q forgave me with a hug and a few kisses...and assured me that after our son was asleep...She was going to satisfy Her craving for giving oral sex tonight...and my enjoyment and pleasure would just be secondary as far as She was concerned...and  i would be enjoying Her talents only because it was what She really wanted to do tonight!....She also eased my fears...that i might have blown the opportunity we had for this weekend....She reassured me that we had a special, romantic "date" coming up...that we had all day to enjoy each others company and bodies...to love one another in our own way!....That is....the way that She chooses!...Which means, i will be lucky enough to have a night...and a full day to honor, worship....serve and submit to my wonderful and sexy Wife.....Not to mention Her thick, black...ten inch cock!

  

i Can Tell You From Experience

i posted a photo on my other blog-i Honor Her , that after further reflection deserves to be elaborated on here....you see...the photo depicts a submissive male...naked, on all fours, eating off the floor like an animal...the reason i should write about this, is that Q has on occasion, found it amusing to humiliate me in this very manner...always i am made to be naked...the what and where are determined by Q's mood!

That my Wife can choose something as degrading as this...and find humor...even satisfaction in forcing me to eat or drink with my bare ass in the air, and my face and mouth to the floor...proves a real cruel, and sadistic streak runs through Her...one that i have had to learn to accept just as surely as i have to accept my masochistic yearnings....and as in the blog spot- Subservient Husband (to a loving wife) - so aptly describes how it feels...being ordered...to be used...to be forced into doing unpleasant...degrading acts...even of a non-sexual nature...truly is a gift to us subs as it actually elevates our Domme's status in our psyche...and very surely plants us deeper in the bonds of mental as well as physical submission...and this in itself does produce a sexual turn on deep within me...even to the point of when there are times when there is no sexual contact between Q and myself...that in itself becomes a sexual act to me as Her submissive!



There have been times when Q was enjoying a simple snack...and She would toss tiny morsels to the floor...then order me to use my mouth to clean them up....She has had me play "Naked Waiter" to Her...preparing and serving Her a formal dinner...where She dined alone, with me naked and serving Her meal...refilling Her wine glass...and when She was through eating...She ordered me to the floor to eat the crumbs She had accidentally "dropped"...and there were plenty....                              (Q-twin)
all the while She enjoyed a cocktail and cigarette while laughing and making cruel remarks at my expense....                                       
                                                                                                        




And there was the time Q pissed right in the kitchen floor and had me lap it up like a grateful dog...this i chronicled in the post - Sunday Afternoon : part 2  , (and now that i think about it...i never have finished sharing with you how the rest of that afternoon went...maybe i deserve a sound spanking for not following through!!! "hint-hint!!!") Licking up my Wife's piss was by far one of the most humiliating...and at the same time, highly erotic moments shared by us since beginning our journey into and through the D/s lifestyle...Even though i am required at times to lick Her pussy clean after Q goes pee...drinking Her urine from the cold floor was an altogether deeper level of submission...totally!








And i could not begin to count the number of times, Q has had me to jerk off while on my knees...naked before Her...and then...as with every orgasm i am allowed...made to clean my come off the floor with my tongue...once, early on...while exploring Her dominant side...Q gave me a very hot, teasingly nasty blowjob while i was tied to a kitchen chair...and at the completion of which, She spit my sperm out onto the tile floor...untied me...and literally shoved me out of the chair...where i fell to the floor and was made to beg to consume my own sperm that had just had the honor of being in my Queens mouth!....In those first months of submission to Q...having to eat my own come while my Wife looked on was a very hard and humiliating thing to get use to...yet there i was...a naked object being forced to lick up his Wife's spit, and his own semen off the kitchen floor....On one hand it thrilled me sexually to be treated as such...but to be degraded in such a manner by one who loved me...to be laughed at as i consumed whatever amounts of come had been coaxed from my balls...well...i use to find it hard to look Her in the eye for the first couple of hours after this...due to the sheer embarrassment i felt at how low i would go just to gain some approval in Her eyes....but like She said...if i wanted an orgasm...what comes out...has to go back in ...every time...no exceptions...that's the price Q demands for allowing me orgasms....



But the photo that has inspired this post...is of a naked slave-boy on all fours eating ice cream...this hits very close to home and i shall tell you why...Most evenings...after Q and i retire to our bedroom...no matter if any kind of sex or "play" takes place or not...i am required to light Her cigarettes and kneel naked on the floor...on Her side of the bed...holding Her ashtray while She leisurely smokes...i fix Her a nightcap if She desires one...give Her foot rubs...serve Her in the bathroom...whatever Q wishes...TV shows...working on my blogs...reading...everything else is set aside when She commands...and rightly so...And on the occasions when a late night snack is desired...such as ice cream...i will prepare two bowls, and bring them to Her...and while Q reads, or watches a show...or even cruises the net for porn (which i find hot as hell!) i will once again be slave-naked...spoon feeding my Queen Her dessert...patiently waiting to enjoy mine until She has finished with Hers...usually Q will have another smoke after Her desert...of course with me kneeling before Her again...When She is done...it is now my turn for ice cream...only by now mine has completely melted....and Q sets the bowl on the floor and orders me to feed....the combination of humiliation...the sweet treat...and Her giggles and not so kind remarks, usually gives a rise to my penis...which causes more laughter and even more embarrassment for me...

i can tell you from experience...spankings...scoldings...bondage...rough sex...all that aside...Once a Woman discovers just how pathetically willing a man is to obey even the most degrading and humiliating command at the snap Her fingers or the look in Her eye...She can and will take every opportunity to drive home the reality of his lowly status as Her "thing"....Her slave....and in turn...this truly cements in his mind the fact that She is in charge...that She is The Queen!


 

This Photo Really Speaks To me...

This photo really speaks to me...there have been many times that my Wife has left me at the door naked...on my knees...on Her way out shopping...to work...or on a date...always kissing Her ass or feet before She leaves...more times than not...Q gives specific instructions on what i should be doing while She is out...this photo is so hot to me...i'm getting hard looking at it....and writing about it!

Q-twins: "Has anyone ever told you..."

"Has anyone ever told you, you look just like Sharon Stone?"....Q hears this all the time...my wife bears an uncanny resemblance to the beautiful actress...And just the other day a gentleman, (who was flirting with Her) asked Her that same question within ear shot of me....and it gave me an idea....

i started this blog at Q's suggestion...She had many reasons...to fuel my creative juices for one...She said that it would be entirely my endeavor...but She laid down two hard rules...

                      1. Always tell the truth, or exactly how i feel, or what i think.
                      2. Absolutely no photos of either one of us are to be used.

i fully understand, and comply with both...but after hearing the comparisons between Q and Sharon so often...i thought that maybe...some how...i could share with all of you...just how beautiful my Wife really is...without breaking rule #2....i proposed this to Q...that while perusing the net for images to illustrate both my blogs...when i came across photos that bore striking resemblance to Her...could i have permission to post the ones that i found most resembled Her in appearance - attitude - and actions....She thought for a moment...and then agreed...but only if rules # 3 and 4 were followed....

                      3. All images representing Her must be a truly comparative image
                          of Her and Her personality.
                      4. Q gets complete and final approval before posting.

    
i eagerly set about collecting a few photos for Her approval....so now i have the opportunity to share with you how blessed i am...to be a husband and slave to such a gorgeous, wonderful, erotic, loving, demanding, strict, and understanding woman...and how lucky those other men She has sex with are as well...


i will....from time to time...post these photos under the heading of "Q-twins"....since it is required that the appearance of the Women in the images must be so very close to what my Wife actually looks like...

and they have to match Her behaviors as well....like i said....Appearance, Attitude, and Actions....i am very excited about this...i am so very proud of Her...i want to show Her off...i'm a prideful little slave i know....so i hope this truly pleases and honors Her...and i hope your fantasies are fired by Her beauty as well....

                                               Thank You Honey!