i Can Tell You From Experience

i posted a photo on my other blog-i Honor Her , that after further reflection deserves to be elaborated on here....you see...the photo depicts a submissive male...naked, on all fours, eating off the floor like an animal...the reason i should write about this, is that Q has on occasion, found it amusing to humiliate me in this very manner...always i am made to be naked...the what and where are determined by Q's mood!

That my Wife can choose something as degrading as this...and find humor...even satisfaction in forcing me to eat or drink with my bare ass in the air, and my face and mouth to the floor...proves a real cruel, and sadistic streak runs through Her...one that i have had to learn to accept just as surely as i have to accept my masochistic yearnings....and as in the blog spot- Subservient Husband (to a loving wife) - so aptly describes how it feels...being ordered...to be used...to be forced into doing unpleasant...degrading acts...even of a non-sexual nature...truly is a gift to us subs as it actually elevates our Domme's status in our psyche...and very surely plants us deeper in the bonds of mental as well as physical submission...and this in itself does produce a sexual turn on deep within me...even to the point of when there are times when there is no sexual contact between Q and myself...that in itself becomes a sexual act to me as Her submissive!



There have been times when Q was enjoying a simple snack...and She would toss tiny morsels to the floor...then order me to use my mouth to clean them up....She has had me play "Naked Waiter" to Her...preparing and serving Her a formal dinner...where She dined alone, with me naked and serving Her meal...refilling Her wine glass...and when She was through eating...She ordered me to the floor to eat the crumbs She had accidentally "dropped"...and there were plenty....                              (Q-twin)
all the while She enjoyed a cocktail and cigarette while laughing and making cruel remarks at my expense....                                       
                                                                                                        




And there was the time Q pissed right in the kitchen floor and had me lap it up like a grateful dog...this i chronicled in the post - Sunday Afternoon : part 2  , (and now that i think about it...i never have finished sharing with you how the rest of that afternoon went...maybe i deserve a sound spanking for not following through!!! "hint-hint!!!") Licking up my Wife's piss was by far one of the most humiliating...and at the same time, highly erotic moments shared by us since beginning our journey into and through the D/s lifestyle...Even though i am required at times to lick Her pussy clean after Q goes pee...drinking Her urine from the cold floor was an altogether deeper level of submission...totally!








And i could not begin to count the number of times, Q has had me to jerk off while on my knees...naked before Her...and then...as with every orgasm i am allowed...made to clean my come off the floor with my tongue...once, early on...while exploring Her dominant side...Q gave me a very hot, teasingly nasty blowjob while i was tied to a kitchen chair...and at the completion of which, She spit my sperm out onto the tile floor...untied me...and literally shoved me out of the chair...where i fell to the floor and was made to beg to consume my own sperm that had just had the honor of being in my Queens mouth!....In those first months of submission to Q...having to eat my own come while my Wife looked on was a very hard and humiliating thing to get use to...yet there i was...a naked object being forced to lick up his Wife's spit, and his own semen off the kitchen floor....On one hand it thrilled me sexually to be treated as such...but to be degraded in such a manner by one who loved me...to be laughed at as i consumed whatever amounts of come had been coaxed from my balls...well...i use to find it hard to look Her in the eye for the first couple of hours after this...due to the sheer embarrassment i felt at how low i would go just to gain some approval in Her eyes....but like She said...if i wanted an orgasm...what comes out...has to go back in ...every time...no exceptions...that's the price Q demands for allowing me orgasms....



But the photo that has inspired this post...is of a naked slave-boy on all fours eating ice cream...this hits very close to home and i shall tell you why...Most evenings...after Q and i retire to our bedroom...no matter if any kind of sex or "play" takes place or not...i am required to light Her cigarettes and kneel naked on the floor...on Her side of the bed...holding Her ashtray while She leisurely smokes...i fix Her a nightcap if She desires one...give Her foot rubs...serve Her in the bathroom...whatever Q wishes...TV shows...working on my blogs...reading...everything else is set aside when She commands...and rightly so...And on the occasions when a late night snack is desired...such as ice cream...i will prepare two bowls, and bring them to Her...and while Q reads, or watches a show...or even cruises the net for porn (which i find hot as hell!) i will once again be slave-naked...spoon feeding my Queen Her dessert...patiently waiting to enjoy mine until She has finished with Hers...usually Q will have another smoke after Her desert...of course with me kneeling before Her again...When She is done...it is now my turn for ice cream...only by now mine has completely melted....and Q sets the bowl on the floor and orders me to feed....the combination of humiliation...the sweet treat...and Her giggles and not so kind remarks, usually gives a rise to my penis...which causes more laughter and even more embarrassment for me...

i can tell you from experience...spankings...scoldings...bondage...rough sex...all that aside...Once a Woman discovers just how pathetically willing a man is to obey even the most degrading and humiliating command at the snap Her fingers or the look in Her eye...She can and will take every opportunity to drive home the reality of his lowly status as Her "thing"....Her slave....and in turn...this truly cements in his mind the fact that She is in charge...that She is The Queen!


 

Monday Morning

The fabric of my shirt is brushing against my raw nipples...climbing into the driver's seat to take my son to school this morning reminded me of just how sore my backside is from it's visit with Her leather strap yesterday...there's a dull yet satisfying ache at my sphincter from being taken not once, but twice by Q and Her thick strapon cock ...and this morning as She dressed for work, Q had me put on the CB-6000...then She ceremoniously clicked the lock in place Herself...pocketed the key...and had me get down to kiss Her feet and thank Her for locking up "Her little plaything"...the same feet that i had been ordered to lick my own come off of the day before!


You see...Grandma had come by and taken our son for the day (God bless Her!) and Q had taken the opportunity to administer in Her words a "long overdue" correction spanking for a few minor infractions that had occurred over the past several days...and after bending me over the dining room table and beating my ass and thighs till my knees were buckling and my cries of "i'm sorry honey...oooooh honey please i'm sorry....please....stop....owwww....i'll do better....please i'm sorry.....owwwww" had turned into just howls of pain with each blow....She thought it a good idea to further enforce Her Dominance by taking Her "naughty little bitch-boy husband" anally!

Once in the bedroom i got a glimpse in the mirror...my bottom and the backs of my thighs were fire engine red with thick stripes of purple here and there...There was nothing sexy or sensual (though it's always erotic to me as a sub) in the way She had punished me, nor in the way She chose to mount and fuck

me up my ass! First bent over on hands and knees at the edge of the bed...with just barely enough lube to work the large head of Her cock in...then one strong steady push till She was buried half way in...slowly pulling back out until the head of that big rubber dick was restretching the opening of my ass...then a hard thrust back in to the half way mark again! A gasp of pain escaped my body each time She drove Herself home until the entire length was pumping in and out of me...faster and faster that cock came at me...Q was breathing hard with Her exertions...through the wonderful pain i began to moan and whimper...i fell face forward onto the bed, my ass still in the air for Her...i felt Her tummy slapping against my beaten ass cheeks with Her every thrust...She pulled out of me after an eternity...i didn't think i could stand much more of the intense pain/pleasure i was getting...but She ordered me on my back..."Spread your legs you filthy little slut!" She ordered...OMG!!!....in one vicious forward shove She sank to the hilt in my sore anus....with my balls in the vise-like grip of her hand She pounded away on me until all i knew was total surrender...this was more violation than fucking...there was no doubt as to who is the superior partner in this marriage....


Later...after She had Her way with me...She had me kneel naked before Her as She sat Queenly in Her chair...She ordered me to jerk off my limp penis (after and during an ass fucking, i can't get hard, but i can achieve a not so satisfying orgasm) as She looked down upon me...regally smoking and making humiliating remarks as to my "worthless little pee-pee" and "how can a man let his Wife fuck him up the ass like I just did your's bitch boy?"...and after the come dribbled from my penis onto Her bare foot...i was of course required to clean my mess up with my tongue, and thank Her for all the attention She had shown me that afternoon.


As i was drawing Her bath last evening...Q came up behind me...put Her arms around my waist and whispered in my ear how much She loves me...That is why i am smiling with all the residual pain i am so privileged to carry this Monday morning...it's going to be a good week!